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Childhood Nightmares By Ana Artz

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  Prompt chosen: What are you afraid of? Childhood Nightmares By Ana Artz My current, and absolute worst fear is death, but honestly, I think that it’d be more interesting to talk about what I was afraid of when I was younger. As death feels more like a dripping anxiety for me rather than something I’m simply "afraid" of. It also doesn’t make for a rather entertaining personal essay. Up until I was about 10 or 11, I feared the most irrational things, situations that would never actually happen in real life. Needless to say, I had a wild imagination. Although that was a bad thing for fears, it led me to have a lot of fun as well. To this day I still view my imagination and creativity as one of my greatest strengths as it allows me to flourish in ways that others can’t. Sure, I would love to automatically be able to solve a complicated math problem and handle extreme data sets like a lot of my peers can, as that’s commonly viewed as more useful, but I love being different in th...

What assumptions do people make about you? By Ana Artz

  What assumptions do people make about you? By Ana Artz I expect that people consider me to be an unserious dilly dallier, which I am. I love cracking jokes to make people laugh. I love wandering around and exploring new areas. I love crafting handmade gifts for people so that I can see them smile. Overall, I love being unserious and having fun with everything (and everyone) that I encounter. I think it’s great that people tend to assume that I am a happy person, because I am. However, what most people don’t see is how I am also an extremely anxious and fearful person. A lot of the time I find myself scared of what people think of me, that’s partly why I like being perceived as happy a lot of the time, so that there’s no real reason to dislike me I guess. I was also raised in a way in which I was taught to always value the opinions and feelings of the other person before my own, which comes with its upsides but also downsides. It means that I’m careful not to upset anyone and I ta...

Deluxe Celebrity Neighbors By Ana Artz

Deluxe Celebrity Neighbors  Who would be the ideal celebrity neighbor? By Ana Artz I’ve seen various movies representing deluxe celebrity homes, with most of the A-listers living in huge 6-story mansions in downtown LA or Miami. Often, these homes feature luxurious pools the size of “regular sized” homes, DJ booths that can project sound into next week, and NBA approved basketball courts. Now, that could be nice to live next to because it would likely mean that my house is likely in the same way or size (meaning that I’m super mega ultra rich). However, it could also mean that while I’m trying to sleep at 2-3am the celebrity next to me is raging at some super mega ultra rich person party, which wouldn’t be ideal for someone who needs at least 8 hours of sleep every night to be able to properly function the next day. Even though movie portrayals aren’t always accurate in the sense of these mega-mansions, I would prefer to live next to some older or more laid-back celebrity so I coul...

Have you ever felt embarrassed by the things that you used to like? by Ana Artz

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Embarrassing Parts of my Past By Ana Artz   In the past, I have felt embarrassed by the things that I used to like. Generally, though, the stuff I felt embarrassed by is things that I liked during COVID-19. During this era of my life (2019-2021), I was exploring myself and who I thought that I wanted to be, and sometimes during that journey, I made some weird/goofy choices that I often find quite embarrassing. For example, I really used to be a big TikTok person in 2020. I had just gotten my first phone back then, so I was excited to create. I ended up making my own character universe! Which I honestly still think is very, very, cool! All I can remember currently is the main character, whom I often called “Chad”. The embarrassing part, though, is when I opted to dress up as the characters to produce TikToks. Luckily, I had a private account, but if it were public… I just know that I would’ve been heavily clowned by my friends if they were to stumble across the account today. Chad w...

A Journal, A Giraffe, and some Airpods

What objects tell the story of your life? (A Journal, A Giraffe, and some Airpods) By Ana Artz I consider 3 main objects to be the tellers of the story of my life. Number one being my journal. When I was about 10 years old, in 2018, my brother gifted me a pretty journal for Christmas. It was blue and glossy, forming a marble-like pattern. However, I didn’t even consider writing in it until 2 years later. Opting to start a dream journal on December 31st, 2020. At first, it mainly stayed documenting dreams, and slowly but surely, it transformed into what it is today. A journal documenting large and small life achievements, an outlet to draw whenever I feel pent up, and of course, a fun place to write little stories. This journal documents my evolution, showing how I not only evolved physically while growing up, but mentally as well. The second object is a tiny, stuffed pink giraffe named “Pinkie”. ...